Fatty

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I honestly don't know what it is about teenage girls and thinking they are fat. Being one of those teenage girls who believes she has a weight problem herself can be kind of tough sometimes. I know i'm not your typical skinny teenager , don't get me wrong i know i'm  not Fat but i'm not exactly thin either. Being a 16 year old girl who has a little extra weight on her can be hard because i know for a fact that boys can be insanely cruel to the girls who don't fallow their every move. I'm talking about that cocky guy..you know the one i'm talking about. He thinks he's mister cool and that every girl wants him so badly. Well i made the mistake of saying what i'm positive any girl with a head on her shoulders is thinking when he tries his cocky little one liners. Cocky guys don't seem to like getting put back in their places, i have learnt this one the hard way. Lucky me i seemed to pick out the one who can see the one thing about myself i don't like , that would be my weight. So he decided to make little comments here and their."Gross" and "eww" now i know these words aren't very big but when they are being directed at you, well lets just say they don't feel so small anymore . I never realized how big i could feel until this happened. This past summer i decided i am going to lose weight. I'm already * pounds down and feeling good but i have about another 20 more to go to bet to my goal weight of 130. For teenage girls its all about the number. 100, 110,120, 130...the numbers that are acceptable in todays society.. anything over and people think your husky, chunky and or fat. Who ever thought people would let a number define them so much, ask any teenage girl they know how much they weigh and they know how much they should way. Some strive to be lower than average some strive to get as close to an average weight as they can get. I know wanting to be within these walls makes me shallow but if being happy with myself is what it takes for me to feel good in my own skin then doesn't everyone deserve the feeling being good with themselves...I will just say this last thing. I love food and i don't ever intend to starve myself but i would just like to be able to eat something fatty and greasy for once and not feel like i betrayed myself for it...being at a healthy weight having those treats once in a blue moon...i think i can finally do that :D